People suffer from these illnesses for years and years, and may never reach out for help. But, when you decide to start the recovery battle, it’s an everyday battle that’ll follow you around forever. When you have a mental health issue you may not think much of it or just go through the motions of your typical day. But in recovery you are constantly under stress not to fall back to those ways, and you are constantly fighting relapsing. Before recovery, you feel like you don’t have anything to lose. But when you’re in recovery, you have everything to lose. When you start keeping track of the days when you last had a drink, or last cut yourself, or last starved yourself. Each and every day counts. And not only are you watching yourself. Everyone else is. You can’t let them down. You can’t let yourself down.
A lot of people suffer in silence during their illness. Then when they decide on recovery they assume they need to be silent during recovery. But, that shouldn't be the case. Recovery is the time to talk and to heal and to get yourself to the best place you can. Having a support system is super important because those people will be able to catch you if you fall and to hold your hand. There will be ups and downs. Good days and bad days. But that’s natural and you have to ability to keep marching forward. If you have the power and strength to reach out for help in the first place, then you can carry that strength and power with you throughout your process. And it will without a doubt take time. Nothing happens overnight.
Relapsing is a big scare. Whether you don't want to let yourself down or the people around you it shouldn't scare you to think you aren't capable of recovery. There is nothing wrong with relapsing. Yeah it sucks but it happens. That is pretty much the motto for life in general. So whether it's been a few months or a few years don't let relapsing get you discouraged from recovery. You made a mistake. Okay. Move on and keep going. You're allowed to make mistakes. You're growing and you're learning. You are not a robot, you are not a machine. You are a human fucking being.
You are worth being happy and healthy, and you are certainly worth and are capable of recovering.
Some helpful links:
Overcoming drug addiction
Overcoming eating disorders
Dealing with depression and anxiety
Dealing with urges to self-harm